Hey everyone!
I haven't had a panic attack at all today! :)
Yet rofl. BUT IT'S OKAY.
I'm leaving in 10 mins to go get dinner and then head to my 2nd biosoc meeting!
I should do more milestones for this blog too. :)
I still haven't fixed the first few blog posts I put up (stupid formatting!! :((
Anyway
Today was my chill day
I got up later than Julia (rofl. that is definitely an achievement)
I went to math class and sat with Akshita. We were totally confused at math LOL. But then I had to leave 10 mins earlier so I could run to my kineseology lab (they lock you out if you're late!! oh dear! i know lol)
Oh speaking of that. Yesterday before my 3rd and final panic attack, I saw Mike (one of our CAs) in the hall and I wanted to talk to him about how I could manage my stress. I held my door open and he said okay lets go talk. I closed the door out, effectively leaving my key.
That was actually the worst. He said it happens to the best of us. But lol he doesn't know me. So I was like just great. His advice didn't help either LOL (it made me panic more actually.) Luckily Julia was just next door with her friends and she got the door for me <3 Thank goodness!! Anyway, back to today.
I went to counselling to see if I could get an earlier appointment (rather than next wed) but they said if I needed, they'll need me to call in at 8:30.
If i really feel bad at night, i'll do that.
It's always mondays and sundays that I feel the most overhwelmed with the week. It's silly really.
But anyway, Edith was talking to me about doing turtle research in the summer (LIKE OMGOSH) and that got me so freaking excited LOL.
I would actually love to do that kind of stuff >< It's killing meee.
So my potential summer things are:
Volunteer with some animal organization
Do a field biology thing with my actual school (i'm talking to the professor about it soon... i'll go tmr morning)
Work at the zoo (applications out in march)
We shall see! (esp since i'm going to HK this summer... my resources are limited eh?)
Anyway, it got me all excited about the future. thinking about going back to california for my phD, going to australia for my masters.. living in australia... oh dear.
Graduating from this silly place :P
Meeting and working for profs.
Doing field biology courses.
Becoming a biologist (i'm such a biophiliac!)
:)
I got way too excited.
And i'm worried it's making me not love what i'm currently experiencing.
On one hand, it's keeping my mind OFF stress.
but i really do only have ONE september 25th, 2012 u know?
So I don't know :P
But i'll figure it out. I think I'll learn to have more fun in my upper years. And with time of course! I didn't enjoy gr 9 until november ish!
And now I have counselling :)
And friends rofl.
Anyway, I'm really hoping this blog is goin to get more positive.
I want to stay here for the weekend. I'm doing MacServe (volunteering with our uni) on saturday with Sharon, Jacqueline, Caylee and a few other friends (who I hope will become my new friends!)
But Nuit Blanche is on saturday night! And I could totally just bus back to TO
But I have a math test on monday :$
LOL
What do you guys think?
Me!: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Biophilia_hypothesis
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