Day 85: Swallowed in the Sea

That's perfect to how I feel!
So the last few days have been insane. Thursday Friday... Hm
Okay let me try to remember. So I finally got a task for the lab!! So exciting :) I can't wait.

I'm sad though. missing Adam van Kouverden on Monday
Thursday was stressful. Because I barely studied for my lab exam. My lab book was not prepared at all. :(. Uhm.
On wednesday I had frantically pasted everything in and studied some kin.

Then Thursday I basically broke down. It wasn't the stress of school. Like actually. I was so frustrated at God. For making my every week that hard. And tough. It was stupid. It was because He's trying to teach me to let go of EVERYTHING. Because I was being emotionally affected
People were distant from me that day. Like nobody talked to me.

It was to teach me.
But it was hard.

Friday came :'(
Woke up, went to kin.
Did my kin test (100%! MY FIRST!!! YAY)
Did psych. made a stupid mistake :'(

Went to my chem lab. Ioana (my lab partner) wasn't there. Suddenly this girl appears out of nowhere asking if i had a chem partner
AND I DIDN"T!
And she's from markham too LOL
and from markville. Not bad. not bad at all. So we did the lab (super easy!)
I went back to my room, prepped to leave. Went to math tutorial.
Stayed and studied in my room for a while. THen went over to LP

I really think I should stop going there. I think I bother them :(

THis leads me to the next point.
After I tell you that we bought dinner ( I ate my first spud AND BRUCHETTA)
And that I got sick. It was horrible. I felt feverish
I drank ginger/lemon water from rach and jacky
and I ate jacky's drugs. lol

Uhm. Went, did the super lame lab exam.
Then Vess drove us home.

Anyway, my next point was that like.. I feel... so unspecial at mac.
I mean nothing. I'm not the smartest. I'm not the dumbest. I'm not the most talented, nor the prettiest. I'm no longer surrounded by amazing people either. Mich at stanford is. She gets to meet amazing people every day. She gets to work with them and make amazing things with them. Like I used to at MD. But now we're all average. We are sheep! And I hate it. I can't fulfil my potential. That's how I feel.
Contained.

Now my head hurts.
I'm super sick
I get waves of fever. It sucks :'(

Life guys.

P.S. really sad that I missed body worlds 3. It was in TO October 9, 2009 - February 28, 2010 :(

AND Sudbury! April 25 - September 3, 2012 (Didn't even know!! :'( COME BACK SOON)